what was I going to say?

I was about to fall asleep, but my mind was runing over something, and it kept going, as if I was thinking up what I would write tomorrow. Well, it was keeping me up so I figured I might as well write it now and get it out. I was thinking about how I'm such a sucker for a pretty face, and how I might get stuck in the interhole looking at friends on facebook and pictures of their pretty friends, you know, general creeping around stuff; and I'll end up waisting time at it until I'm all in a lull. I get dragged out looking at pointless stuff on the internet, but it's so easy to do, and such a sedentary pleasure with momentary enjoyment. When I'm in a relationship, I don't look at other girls at all, and for a while after I've gotten out of a relationship I don't want to see attractive girls at all. I'm at the point now where I can appreciate a pretty face again, but I know it's not a good idea. I mean, it's not like I'm looking at porn, or I'm chatting up these girls, but still, it's pointless and it gets under your skin. I guess it's comparable to going to an open house back home when you really have no intention of moving in. You just want to look inside, and poke around, you know, have a good lurk, and you might even go home and fantasize about selling the house you're in and....... you know this would be a better analogy for someone in a relationship. No no, it can still apply, because the house is symbolic of a situation. therefore the situation I'm in now is just fine, and there's no need to buy a house, or something. Well, that wasn't really my intention, to get into that. I was mostly thinking about how people try to set me up with their granddaughters and stuff like that. No, none of that has happened here. I'll be talking to someone, and they'll start in on something about relationships, and it may take me a minute or so before it clicks in. "Ohhh, right! I'm a 26 year old male in the church and I'm supposed to be married off by now and saving Canadian Tire money so I can buy young Ronnie a new swing set for Christmas! No by, not my racket." They'll say things like, "Oh how lucky the one that lands you!" Or, "I'm sure God has a women who is waiting out there for you." Well, sure that's possible, but why is the late church so caught up in getting hitched? Here's what Jesus had to say about the matter Matthew 12:10 His disciples said to Him, "If such is the case of the man with [his] wife, it is better not to marry." 11 But He said to them, "All cannot accept this saying, but only [those] to whom it has been given 12 For there are eunuchs who were born thus from [their] mother's womb, and there are eunuchs who were made eunuchs by men, and there are eunuchs who have made themselves eunuchs for the kingdom of heaven's sake. He who is able to accept [it], let him accept [it]." And PAUL 1Cr 7:6 But I say this as a concession, not as a commandment. 7 For I wish that all men were even as I myself. But each one has his own gift from God, one in this manner and another in that. 8 But I say to the unmarried and to the widows: It is good for them if they remain even as I am; 9 but if they cannot exercise self-control, let them marry. For it is better to marry than to burn [with passion]. Well, it looks like marriage, though a blessed gift, is a last resort for those who cannot control themselves. So why don't I hear this in church? Maybe you have, and no doubt it gets preached about, but anytime I hear a valentines day sermon, or any day on "Love" or Marriage, I don't hear about this and it frustrates me because there are three Biblical reasons listed here for why one might be a eunuch, so they have to be in the congregation, and what do they get out of it? I'm not saying that every sermon has a message for everyone present, but if I'm a 14 year old boy who doesn't understand why he's not attracted to girls, or boys either for that matter, then how am I going to feel? Confused I bet. No this is not a personal account. I'm not gay and I wasn't confused at 14 over whether I liked girls or not, I was confused over why I felt unhappy about going to church and excited whenever it was snowed out. I liked God, but there was something about getting up on Sunday for church I never enjoyed. Anyways. I'm not saying marriage is evil, I'm just saying it's only one option and not the be all and end all. I don't know if I'll end up married or not, but I don't care. I'm going to be where I'm supposed to be, alone or avec wife. Eat a balanced diet, get regular sleep, do some exercise, and have a good scrub every now and then. The body is a temple for goodness sake. David aka sinner # 824628282623891223973498298876341376123836987456789878565-E