Are you read to go?

I was just lying in bed, thinking about my buddy Jason who has to cut his European holiday short so he can be at Brads funeral. It is these extreme examples that open our eyes to what life is really about, and as I sit here I feel like I'm bursting inside. When you want to put words on a feeling and you can't, so you string a few together that don't quite fit or look conventional together, because that is the best way to describe the tremors of your soul. I wonder what you think about when you read this, because I know more than one of you who have seen someone close to you come very close to death, and you might not be able to explain why they are alive. Or maybe you can explain why they are alive, but you can't completely believe in an explanation which full of the sort of holes our doubts like to peek through. I thought about writing this tomorrow, and then I was reminded of the frailty of our hours, and that the present is all I can count on. I know I have just experienced the loss of a friend, and I know what psychology has to say about my behaviour at this point, but I always feel like death opens my eyes. It causes you to reflect and all those cliche lines, and if you take advantage of it, death will wake you up. I can't get my mind of the pivotal point between life and death, where there is either enough of something to put an end to us, or there isn't, and we live. I wonder what it would take to make you stop reading my blog, and I wonder how many people have stopped reading already. I don't mind making people feel uncomfortable about my words because I'm not subjecting you to them, you are subjecting them to yourself. So here is the question. Are you ready to die? This is not one of those questions like, "If a doctor told you you have one week to live, what would you do?" My question doesn't afford such privileges because you could be gone before you finish Reading this sentence. I'm not writing this to scary anyone, I'm just writing because I feel a responsibility to bring these sorts of questions to the minds of those I love. I hope you can wake up a little more, to do something today and feel purpose in your actions, and if you are not getting that satisfaction then you either need to change what you're doing or accept your good actions and see them for what they are. I'm not even going to preach on this one. I just want to say that I write for fun, and if you have something you want to hear about or a question or anything, just drop me a line and I'll write about it. If it's private then I'll keep it that way. If it's a discussion topic or idea, then I'll have my say here and we will see if we can stir up some ideas. If you'll excuse me I'm going to sleep now.